Current mood:	crushed
Entry tags:	emo, i just wanna die now please, life, life is bollocks

*sigh*
Sorry for last night's embarrassment of an entry. If you didn't notice, I was drunk. Very much so.

I've been really upset this past week. I split up with my boyfriend, again. Except, this time it was his decision and there's no second chance.

He said it was because he couldn't take the distance anymore. Because we live 150 miles away from each other. I don't think he was able to handle the fact that I wasn't there much and we could only see each other every 2/3 weeks.

But it's hit me hard coz I didn't see it coming. I thought it was all gonna be alright. But it wasn't alright and now I dunno what to do with myself.

I wish I could have just lived in the same place as him...

Why is life so cruel? How much more shit can I handle? How much more crap do I have to handle?

I just wanted happiness and for things to work out. But no, some higher being decided that I didn't deserve that at all. And I feel like I've been cheated.

I feel as if I've bought a ticket for a gig that will make my life and someone has cancelled the show just as I get to the door.




I just feel so lonely right now...